Essence 9 – Guru’s Path

The thing is since that time I have undergone so many changes. Nothing has been easy, everything has been very difficult, and sometimes a real struggle. Some of my closest former friends are shunning me. I know it is not because they do not love me. They are uncomfortable, and so am I. But my farmer comes in from the fields happy now. He looks at me and says, “I feel so alive.” He tells me I am beautiful and the daughter of the Guru. The Sikhs give me so much love and treat me as their sister. But inside I feel so unworthy of their love.

It is a struggle to wake up and do meditation. Sometimes we are so sleepy, we want to go for the bed, but we look at each other and remember how it was before, that is enough to wake us up again. I envy those born to this path, so pure and innocent; they don’t feel the traces of dirt.

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I put the papers down, and woke my wife, I pulled her into my arms, and looked in to her eyes, and there was beauty there that I had never noticed before.

“I didn’t know, you should have told me.” I said, “I have been so selfish, thinking everything was about me all this time. I thought you just did this for me. Forgive me."

We both started weeping in to each others arms. “It will be ok, we’ll get through this with SatNaam WaheGuru.” Then we were weeping and laughing together.

The children came in and found us. They just looked at us like we were crazy, “What’s for dinner?” the little one piped.

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